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Into The Batter's Box...
In the fall of 2008, I began my ignominious relationship with the “Big C,” cancer. You haven’t really lived until you have a doctor look you in the eye and say, “You have cancer.” It definitely changes your perspective and priorities. The diagnosis was hairy cell leukemia…oddly named due to the leukemia cells appearing under a microscope to have a light, hairy surface. It is a disease where the white blood cells drop to near zero. White blood cells are those which offer resistance to outside diseases and germs. But with God’s help and the skilled crew at MD Anderson Cancer Clinic, I was able to beat the disease and look forward to a remaining life of health and happiness.
Until 2010 that is, when I
noticed this irritating spot on my arm that would not heal. I decided to visit my friendly doctor who
suggested a biopsy which returned with the C-word again…a melanoma. A little surgery, from which I still bear the
scar, took care of the problem, and I was on my way again.
The next four years saw a smooth health
cycle, but by mid-2014, my white blood count was going through the roof. Sure enough, further testing determined I had
contracted Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia.
With CLL, the white blood cells do the opposite of what happens with
hairy cell leukemia…the count goes through the roof. This time, the doctor said, I would not have
to come in for infusions but rather take a pill a day. I decided that was great, until I went to the
MD Anderson pharmacy. As the pharmacist
was preparing my ticket, I noticed the price…$11,100.00 for 28 pills! I nearly bolted out of the pharmacy, but she
said, “Your co-pay is $50.00!” Thank God
for good insurance!
Within a few months, the CLL came under control, the expensive pills were cancelled, and life went on, but in the summer of 2015, I noticed an irritating spot above my right eye. By this time, with my history of cancer, any blemish was biopsied, and, sure enough, I needed to have surgery for basil cell carcinoma.
Fast forward to 2020, and a new challenge
popped up. In my routine annual exam, my
PSA count was discovered to be high.
With examination and biopsies, it was determined I had prostate cancer. By now I was using Willowbrook Methodist as
my primary medical resource because of our move from Baytown to Spring. The prostate treatment consisted primarily of
radiation, which was successful after about six months.
In the fall of 2024, I had been experiencing an irritation on my left temple...a sensitive spot that would just not go away. My friendly dermatologist diagnosed it as a squamous cell carcinoma which was biopsied and determined to be cancerous. So within a couple weeks of diagnosis, I received fourteen tiny stitches on the spot where the carcinoma had been removed. The stitches were so small the incision couldn't be seen a year later.
Now we come to the fall of 2025.
In my annual physical, it was discovered my white count was indeed going
south again (hairy cell leukemia.) At
first, my blood count was just slightly receding, so with blood tests monthly, the
direction of the count was monitored. However, by January 2026, the danger point had been reached, and the result was I began chemotherapy treatments for hairy cell leukemia on
Monday, February 10, 2026.
Interestingly, I was taking the same type of chemo…Cladribine and
Retuximab, as I took in 2008. I had been down this road before, so I expected a good outcome. After weeks of infusions and constant blood monitoring, on August 22, 2026, I received the medical report I was praying for: "No trace of leukemia noted."
To get back to the original analogy at the beginning of this essay, Old Man
Cancer has pitched six pitches toward me. I have now been successful with all six challenges, thanks I believe in a great part to the prayers and support of family, many wonderful friends, and the blessings of a merciful God. The facts are…at the age of 83, I am still mobile, fairly alert (depends on who you ask,) and of
reasonably right mind. In spite of all
the “bumps in the road of life,” with the help of God, His people, an
incredible wife, a loving family, and supportive friends, I can truly say that
I am a highly blessed man.
The Passages (Stages) of Life
In Gail Sheehy’s classic textbook of human
development, “Passages,” she discusses the various periods of life (“passages”)
one experiences as life evolves from infancy to advanced maturity. Youth, with its excitement of exploration and
discovery, inevitably leads to the highly productive middle years in which we
exercise with maximum energy our greatest creativity. It is during these middle passages (there are
various stages even within this middle period) that we create families,
fortune, and fame, and the challenges of creating drives us and keeps us at a
peak operating efficiency due primarily because we are young enough to be healthy
and physically able to handle the tasks of 24-hour parenting, planning, and
producing.
Coupled with this drive to create is a certain feeling of
indestructibility. Although an incomprehension of our mortality is evident from
the early days of youth, the compelling evidence which we observe on a regular
basis…deaths and illnesses of friends and loved ones combined with
life-changing accidents and events, has little impact on our personal
conviction that “none of these things will ever happen to me,” or “this thing
may happen to me, but it will be sometime far into the future.” This personal concept of indestructibility
can sometimes work toward a positive outcome and is why younger generations are
usually more willing risk takers. It is
the reason they don’t hesitate to attempt to beat the odds in physical
activities, business, or personal relations no matter how stacked against them
the odds may be.
Inevitably…and in the passages of life the
word “inevitably” is sprinkled throughout the entire life process, once we have
survived our years of maximum production and activity, the period of
deactivation begins. It is during this
period that working overtime no longer has great appeal regardless of the extra
pay, and, where an uneventful evening was once considered lost time, a quiet
evening at home is now highly anticipated.
The children have long since left the nest, and now there are
grandchildren visiting. The
grandchildren are loved dearly, and when they visit it is an exciting, joyous
time, but once children and grandchildren have said goodbye and gone back to
their home, we heave a big sigh of relief and collapse on the sofa.
The most anticipated event of this period
of life passage, however, is probably retirement from full-time work. Having worked fifty or more years on average
and hopefully been fortunate enough to have a retirement plan, the freedom from
a full time work obligation creates endless opportunities for activities which
have been put on the back burner for years due to work restraints. Travel, recreation, hobbies, and various
other enjoyable activities are now within reach, and the anticipation of this
“free time” is what motivates many experienced workers as they see their
retirement day approaching.
One of the beauties of retirement is the
clock ceases to be your master. No
longer burdened with the time requirements of employment, use of the clock’s
alarm pleasantly diminishes. Leisurely
breakfasts can be enjoyed at will, and each day becomes a blank schedule which
can be filled in at the whim of the retiree.
Want to be busy? Fill in the
schedule. Want to lay low? Keep it blank. It is a lifestyle almost incomprehensible to
the middle passage person with a full schedule of parenting, working, and
managing a home. Mention retirement to a
middle passage person and that same glazed-eye look appears on his/her face as
when we try to talk to children about finding jobs when they grow up.
At the same time, the challenge of
parenting, working, and managing a home, though we wistfully look forward to
the day when these obligations are passed, satisfies for the middle passage
person a critical requirement…a fulfillment of dependency. The drive for success during the middle
passages is fueled by the knowledge that others are dependent upon our productivity. Parents are driven to provide for their
children. An employee’s production
affects the success of his manager, and a manager affects the working
environment of his/her employees. In
short, we want someone to need us. We
strive to be good parents, employees, or managers because we would like to
think that someone needs us to do well.
Retirement, with all its free time, takes away this fulfillment. Since we are no longer productive members of
the workforce, there are no employees anxiously awaiting our management
decisions. There are no bosses anywhere
impatiently waiting for us to show up so the big problem of the day can be
solved Even at home, there are no
lunches to prepare for workers or students.
We can leave our schedules open for the day because no one needs us. That
perception can extend to family. With
children now grown and faced with fighting their own parenting wars with our
grandchildren, we feel that, though we may be concerned observers, we are not
required as our children carve out their own destinies.
The result of this perceived lack of need
can be a nagging depression, especially if the perception of uselessness is
within the home. Faced with a lack of
obligations, retirees can easily retreat within themselves to the point that
though a husband and wife have fought the parenting and working wars for years
together, once the battles have been survived, each one enters a personal
cocoon replete with his/her own personal activities, preferences, and
interests. Seldom sharing moments of
common interest, they intensify the isolation to the point that in time they
become strangers sharing only a roof over their heads.
In most cases, of course, this perceived
lack of need is just that…a perception.
Husbands and wives still love, children and grandchildren still love,
and friends are still friends. Psychologists, however, will attest that many of
our thoughts and actions are based on perceptions and not actual facts. With that in mind, retirees must initiate active
attempts to deflect any signs of depression encountered upon retirement by any
member of the household. During the middle passage years, there is a
feeling of camaraderie while a couple works together to raise a family and
provide for its general welfare, but upon entering the later passages when
retirement has come and the children have gone, that feeling of working
together for a common cause can vanish.
The truth is, that feeling needs to morph into a realization that close
personal support and companionship are needed more than ever. Their personal bonds of love and need,
cultivated years before during courtship and enriched during a life of sharing,
need to be strengthened, not weakened.
I penned the following poem the year I turned sixty years old. Although it was written pre-retirement, the gist of the message still applies today.
Nothing Rhymes with Sixty!
Nothing rhymes with sixty as one
turns the annual page.
Nothing rhymes with sixty. It’s an awkward, frustrating age!
Too young to be old; too old to
be young,
Obsessed with the fear your song’s already been sung.
The memories of the past grow
stronger, yet fade,
While the future once dreamed
seems fainter in life’s shade.
Helpless and hapless, trapped in
time’s ceaseless tide,
Then saved from the gloom by, “Hey Papaw! Come outside!”
The message becomes clear; it’s
not the future or past
But the present is where our
legacy is cast.
Children and grandchildren, the
love of a wife,
The closeness of a family…therein lies life.
With His hand to guide us as we
travel along
Everything rhymes with sixty…if
you play the right song.
Tempelhof Central Airport, West Berlin, Tour of Head Building East, Sixth Floor, 1965
The 6912th was based at Tempelhof
Central Airport, a civilian airport dating from the early 1900s. Tempelhof consisted of one massive building
nearly nine/tenths of a mile long in a incomplete circular shape. The 6912th was situated in the
easternmost section of the building, referred to as Head Building East. The
operations center was located on the sixth floor, with the other floors
dedicated to personnel, logistics, storage, and gym.
On the first day of arrival at the 6912th, a new linguist was given a tour of the sixth floor with brief explanations of
the tasks each section performed. The
following paragraphs are a review of what the new arrival would have heard from
his tour guide. This information is
excerpted from Cold War Warrior: A Memoir written by Retired MSGT
Warren “Molly” Knight. When I read it
for the first time, I was flooded with memories of those days long past.
Airman Jim approaches you and begins:
“Hi, my name's Jim. Call me Tank. Before
you ask, I am a Dash-A. Again, before you ask, that means German
linguist. Let's start back at the entry door to this
floor. Here is the security box to the
door…remember the code…don't write it down.
The code will change from time to time.
If you forget it or miss out on the change, you can use the phone
located right there near the box, and someone inside will come and open the
door for you. The only problem with
that approach is if they are busy and no one comes along to hear the phone
ringing… well, you know how that goes. When
that happened to me once, I just reached in there and punched all the buttons
with a properly irritated smack. Then
some nice air policeman came up to the elevator and another up the stairs and
let me in. They were not pleased, so I
don't recommend that approach. Remember
the code.
“The door over to your left is our Armory. If there is an alert and your assignment
causes you to need to be armed, there's where you'll pick up your weapon and
any required communication device. Otherwise,
you might be assigned to destruction or burning or maybe even trying to figure
out what is going on by means of your regular job.
“Back through the main door and to the
right is the part of our crew who works in the dark and writes with grease
pencils (Radar.) They have fascinating
equipment. You could end up working in
there. If you don't, sometime when you
and they are not busy, get them to show you the things they can see and do with
their equipment. It is indeed
fascinating.
“Further down the hallway here is the
inside phone I was telling you about. It
is a non-secure line. If you hear it
ringing, answer it by repeating the phone number and that's it. Say no more; you might be asked to go get
someone here on the floor. Do so.
“Through this door straight ahead is where
you'll be working...at least initially. Over
here to the right is the ditty-bop (Morse Code) position, and that fellow there
is an analyst. He can read what the ditty-bop
types and write what it means backwards.
“Directly behind that position is the Search
position. You will be trained to work
there as a short-term rotating task.
I'll likely be the person who shows you how to do that when it comes up. Over there further to the right is the I/A (Intelligence/
Analysis) Coordinator's desk. They don't
relieve (change shifts) when everyone else does, and they talk on the intercom. Every now and then, they'll jump up, type up
a short teletype tape, and send a message off to someone elsewhere.
“The room behind them is where you'll store
your headsets and pick up a patch cord from one of the pegs there on the wall. Make sure your operator number is on your
headsets. Never use someone else's headset…it's not healthy and it erases the
frequencies the headset is good for. (joke)
“You will learn how to operate those tape
players in that row while holding one of your headset speakers to your ear with
your shoulder, making the tape go forward with your foot and backwards with
your finger…all the while typing. You'll
get so good at it that you can do it without thinking, but you do need to be
sober.
“And this device is a degausser. It erases tapes. You put the tape on this way, flip this
switch, turn the tape in this direction slowly with your finger…hear that
buzzing growl? Turn your body in this
direction. If you don't do it just like
I told you, the machine will sterilize you.
You will have no children. You do
not decide which tapes are to be degaussed. Sergeant XXXXXX makes that decision for the
dash A’s (German linguists.)
“See that wall of audio tapes? If anyone asks you where we should store them,
don't say the basement. We did that one
winter. It got so cold down there that
the oxide fell off the tapes.
“Here in the center of the big room is the Mission
Supervisor’s desk. His job is to worry. Don't
irritate him…he's got enough to worry about.
“The fellow over there wearing the headsets
with a microphone and leashed to the thing that looks like a dog run cable is the
Voice Controller. He'll be your immediate boss. He'll know what you're working on at all
times…that's his job.
“You'll note that there is an air
conditioner in every blacked-out window over behind those receiver consoles. In fact, they're all along the wall and into
the adjacent rooms. It surely causes the
German nationals who might be out around the hangar to wonder about all those
air conditioners running at full blast in the middle of winter when it's
freezing out. They keep the smoke down
in here, too. It's not part of your job
to adjust the air conditioners, but you will note a number of people working in
their T-shirts.
“On the other side of the ditty-bop room is
the door to the Communication Center. Don't
try to go in there. The people who work
there have different badges. They are
trained to glare at you if you try to go in there. In this doorway here to the left is where the
Reporters work. They look at the information the Analyst writes backwards on
the other side of that translucent wall so the Reporter can see it forward. Then the Reporters write little reports and
hand them through that window to someone in the Communication Center for
further communication. As we keep going
through this door, we'll see where the Flight Commander's desk is located. He spends a lot of time in the Reporters’
area when not otherwise commanding. Beyond
that is where the Voice Analysts work. They
separate 6-ply pads into one-ply stacks and package up the stacks for the
Courier. You might be assigned to this
section after a while. Otherwise, expect
to work a few hours on some midshifts helping with the stacking and packing.
“Back out to the main room and further back
through the door at the end is the Blue Room (Electronic Surveillance.) These
people work in the dark, too, but there's always an eerie light from their gear. I cross-trained back there for a few months
when they were running a little short. Great
job!
“The burn room is back here in the corner. Flip that switch on for the exhaust, put a
burning paper in there on the hearth, turn that valve, and pray. Don't blow the place up. Turn it off in the reverse order. My roommate will likely be the one to train
you in burn-bag burning. He loves to
have burn duty because we do that on midshifts, and if you get the hang of it
you can get the job done in a couple of hours, tidy up the room, and head back
for a needed shower as you do sweat in the burn room. That metal ladder is a way you get to the
roof and our gear (antennas) up there. Maybe
I can show you around there someday.
“In this little room is where we store the
floor mopping and waxing equipment.
Until you get a little rank or some time in grade, you’ll become
familiar with this equipment when our Flight has midshift on a Sunday. You'll agree that’s a fine looking, heavy-duty
mop and mop-wringer bucket. There's no
finer mop-ringer bucket anywhere. Learn
to use it right. Don't even think about
running the buffer until you have been properly trained. A buffer operator cannot be bouncing off our
people or our equipment. That's it.
“I'll turn you back over to Sergeant XXXXXXX
who will probably get you some side-saddle time with one of the old timers
today. Be advised…that in no training
anywhere have they prepared you for the massive explosion you're going to hear
in your headsets here at Tempelhof.”
End of Tour
My first impression upon
listening was the incredibly poor quality of the Russian transmissions, and I
began to realize that I was about to embark on the most challenging mission of
my life. Over the next two years,
technology helped improve voice quality, but, even at best, listening,
comprehending, translating, and deciphering communications required every ounce
of concentration one could muster.
In September of 2011, many of
us who served in West Berlin during those exciting years of the Cold War
reunited in Berlin for a last reunion.
Time had done to us what the Soviets could not do. But even Father Time cannot diminish the
patriotic pride felt by those who were the Silent Warriors of the Cold
War. We did our job.
Memorial Day, 2025
To many, Memorial Day is the unofficial beginning of summer. Memorial Weekend is a time of relaxation with family gatherings, barbecue on the grill, civic parades, and celebrations, and, if one is a race fan…the running of the Indianapolis 500, which has been run during every Memorial Day weekend since 1911.
An Unusual Church Service
Confessions of a Car Junkie
I’ve owned some cars that I thought were ahead of their times…a 1968 Renault 10 and a 1980 Nissan 310GX. Small but comfortable, both cars consistently obtained 40-45 mpg…but nobody cared because gas was $0.30 per gallon. Then I’ve also owned vehicles that were at the end of their lifetimes, namely six Jeep Wagoneers. Not the baby ones you see today, but the large, Suburban-style, full-time four-wheel drive behemoths that were the workhorses of Wyoming. It was impossible to stick one in the snow. They went everywhere.
At about this same time, Shirley and I were driving as our family car a 2011 Kia Sorento, our second foray into the SUV market, having traded in a 2003 Buick Rendezvous. Both cars were roomy, comfortable, and very utilitarian…and as exciting as a shovel. Unfortunately, after owning the 'Vette for a couple of years, I had to let it go because of a hip replacement. 'Vettes are not that easy to enter, anyway, and with a bum hip it became untenable to own. I traded it for a new Kia Soul. You know you have reached old age when you trade a Corvette for a Kia Soul, but the Soul was an amazing little car.... roomy, comfortable, efficient, and dependable as a Maytag appliance. It was the perfect suburban car, although about as exciting as that Maytag appliance I mentioned. I drove it for a couple of years and sold it. Tired of car payments.
On some future day I’m sure that I will hang up my keys and
reserve the Senior Citizen bus for my travels. But until then, I’ll still be collecting auto brochures and reading car magazines. And who knows? Maybe another Corvette.








